This morning I had to go to Lowe's to find some lightbulbs and I had to wash my hands because I grabbed the door handle and something sticky was on it. Anyways my old teacher came in to take a crap. She was grunting and stuff. I was trying not to laugh. When he was done she asked me if I was ok. I just said I needed to wash my hands. I could have sworn she was going to bust me for skipping the final XD
For the past 3 days I was waiting for an e-mail or atleast a message from my close friend where he is. We talk alot on msn but he hasn't been on. He could have atleast told me where he was, and that little endearing thing we say to eachother. He didn't put that either.
I sent him a message asking why he hasn't checked his email or sent me anything, and he goes "I can't check my e-mail if i aint home, and I aint home. Im with a girlfriend. Not MY girlfriend. A girlfriend"
and that's it...
he didn't say what we always say. ..maybe it's just me but we both have the same two sites, and he could have sent me a message saying where he was! and what we always say, but I guess I don't mean enough to him to say it when he's with is "friend thats a girl" or his friends. Is he too "cool" to message me anymore?
....besides if he would have said what we normally do at the end, and even told me where he was going. Then it wouldn't be as bad...
I guess he's too cool when he's with his friends...................friends don't do that to eachother..when he comes back I'll give in and forgive him...I'm too sensitive. -___- plus i've had the flu for two days and that doesn't make it any better..
and for the mood I can't say if I'm more sad, dissappointed, or angry..
Thu, Jan. 10th, 2008, 02:44 pm
This morning at 4:30am I woke up with a sinus migraine behind my left eye and in my forehead. I had it all day. Thankfully I threw up, and then was able to lay down and put a hot beanbag compress on my eyes and forehead. It was so bad I couldn't cry either because that made it worse. It felt like it was throbbing so hard my mind was going to explode! here it is 10 hours and 40 minutes later and it's now starting to go away. Thank God!
and thank goodness tomorrow is friday.
haven't heard from any of my friends today, I wonder how they are.
Tue, Jan. 8th, 2008, 03:32 pm
That was scary
This morning I was in a hurry and forgot to take my pills. And..... I had to run some errands in town well I felt strange so I called my dad's fiance and told her that I felt strange and she's like "big deal. nothings going to happen to you." and she hung up. well.......an hour or so later I passed out somewhere and nobody could figure out what was wrong with me. I woke up in the hospital and I tried talking but nobody could understand me because my words were slurred. My heart beat was like 100 times faster, and my breathing was laboured. It was scary. Everything was distorted and I was hallucinating and everything.
..I could of died today.
If I would have...that last journal entry would have been my final entry.....
Fri, Jan. 4th, 2008, 03:13 pm
The bus ride sucked today. Some kid in the front row had a book and he was supposed to be reading but instead he was picking his nose and eating it. x.x that was the most nastiest thing ever. I'm never sitting in that seat. Who knows how clean the bus seat is. sick........... ewww boogers. The music playing was country, and it sucked. Like really old bluegrass music. Bunch of wierdos are in there....I'm scared. XD
There was a fight in the street today. I was walking right by and WHAM the guy punched him and they rumbled and I stayed out of it, specially how the police came shortly after. I might get called down to the station if anything happened. That sucked more than anythings ever sucked before.
I went to the library hoping it would be somewhere warm...my apartment is like an icebox it's freezing......heating costs extra. Dang it, I was hoping to get a call saying someone hired me...not today..maybe tomorrow.
Well whoevers reading this I hope ya have a good weekend and I'll write later or tomorrow. I am g2g for now so I will just post later. Bye.
Thu, Jan. 3rd, 2008, 01:37 pm
Everyone's busy today, and I'm that depressed mood again.
I doubt I'll cry at this second, but if I cry maybe I'll feel better.I can't really say...
The stupid noise from the heater is atleast driving out the silence. but also my patience.
I haven't made myself anything to eat today, I'm sick of eating the same old things. I've got a headache and I can't seem to get rid of it.
I wish I was on the bus again after I punched that kid. or playing Sonic or even yes..I'm desperate old school pokemon..
Thu, Jan. 3rd, 2008, 09:42 am
I was sick today, I woke up with a migrane and I felt so exhausted like I was hit with a truck. I've been doing alot lately. I just needed to rest.
I thankfully had no reason to take the bus today. The bus driver yesterday wasn't too happy...but I didn't er....exactuallty welcomed on the bus for a week but hey! the kid deserved it.
I'm behind in alot of things, I'll get back tomorrow. Today's been a pretty slow boring day. Tomorrow I'll feel better.
m-mew I drew a catboy this morning. Now I'm just bored...
Wed, Jan. 2nd, 2008, 03:58 pm
on the bus
on the bus ride home I had a bad day and I was listening to my mp3 player. and my apartment isn't that far away..but anyways I needed to be alone and this kid was pestering me and yelled and blew some crap in my ear and then I got so mad because he kept touching me and crap so my fuse snapped and I punched him in the face.
then some kid yelled Asshole in german and the bus driver (who is almost all german) slammed on the brakes and we all almost got whiplash. and he got up out of his seat and yelled "DONT YOU EVER SWEAR ON MY BUS! YOU'RE OFF!!" and he kicked the kid off. wow what a day.
Tue, Jan. 1st, 2008, 02:26 pm
At first I thought I'd have enough money to leave, now I'm not so sure. The prices for apartments are expensive more then this one. And there like here it's only one room.
My dad yelled at me today, because I hurt myself and couldn't ride the bike. Man this sucks.
Boy he's good at yelling.
and I don't wanna hear his stupid life stories. I mean who cares?
the plummings got the bathroom flooded.............
ahhh a wonderful new year start.....oh yes. -_____-
Finally! I think I've got enough money to move to another city away from Marly. I sure hope so. Ahhhh...I hope this will be a good New Year.
I got to talk to my mom today. It was fun. Haven't talked to her in a while....we only talked for about 6 minutes..not enough. But hey it's something.
I'll keep hanging in there, I hope for a new year. .....08...I graduate this year..