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Tue, Jan. 22nd, 2008, 06:41 pm
what would you do?

While  I was adding some new ppl on my deviant art account I ran into my ex on there. -___- I mean reading his comments, and ones his friends put there....it hurt.... I just want to forget everything. Even though he broke up with me like ...3 years ago? ...2 and a half? anyways he said I wasn't old enough for him I'm 4 years younger. And we couldn't even be friends.

I never want to see him around that site.......it just hurts  too much.
..what would you do? to try and forget the pain? please let me  know...I have this heavy feeling in my heart..

Wed, Jan. 23rd, 2008 07:08 am (UTC)
zacks_blade

Hi! I'm sorry about your ex. I'm 5 years younger than my girlfriend. I was seventeen when we started dating; she was almost 23, but it isn't a problem for us. I'm 21 now, and we're still together. Really, I think your boyfriend must not have been right for you in the first place if it's that big an issue for him.

I don't know what to tell you to do, really. Fanfic always helps me. Reading it...writing it... It's a good outlet when you're feeling down.

Anyway, I was going through my friend's list on my journal, and I noticed you friended me a few weeks ago. My journal's completely friend-locked these days, but I figure you probably want access to my fics, seein' as I don't really have anything on there besides fics. Just wanted to let you know I added you to my friends list, so you can get to everything I've got if you're interested. There's a few things to pick through, mostly FF7.

Oh, and good luck moving out after graduation! I had to move out right then too. My mom didn't agree much with my sexual preferences... *rolls eyes*

Much love,

Sam
zacks_blade

Edited at 2008-01-23 07:09 am (UTC)

Fri, Jan. 25th, 2008 12:36 am (UTC)
governortadashi: =)

That's nice you've been together so long. I'm lucky if it lasted for a week..
and thank you, yeah I tried to check things out but it was friends only so I couldn't do anything. I thought I was a bother.
Thanks for letting me know!
=)
and I hope to be successful with college ^^

Fri, Jan. 25th, 2008 04:01 am (UTC)
zacks_blade: Re: =)

No problem. And no bother, really. I only had it on friendlock because of that whole LJ deletion fiasco that was going on. I have a permanent account that cost me $150, so I really didn't want to lose it just because of the stuff I write. Plus, it's where all my fanfic is!!! I didn't want to have to repost it elsewhere. So I locked it and put up a message telling anyone if they wanted access to just let me know.

Yesterday, though, I figured out how to use the Adult Content warning label LJ invented for us, so I slapped that sucker up on my journal and took the whole thing off friendlock. I really don't want to keep anyone out if they've a mind to read my stuff. *grin*

Ah, good luck with college. It's a bitch. This, thankfully, is my last semester. It beats the hell outta high school though...and living with your parents.

Wed, Jan. 23rd, 2008 02:27 pm (UTC)
strikethat

I wouldn't try to forget it, because it maybe, isn't a matter of if you want or not, rather than heart aching? Tried maybe, to let it out of you, paint it out, talk someone, realize it is real and let it just go as the feelings go... ne?

Fri, Jan. 25th, 2008 12:38 am (UTC)
governortadashi: yeah

yeah, you're right. but..I really want to forget it. Because it brings too much pain.
Its pain and heart aching. I can't see him, and I can't talk to him because it makes me mad. Everything that happened comes rushing back. and believe me..he wasn't the greatest bf...

Thu, Jan. 24th, 2008 06:31 am (UTC)
ff7sam

Aww, that sucks. I guess you just have to act like he's not there. That's what I tried to do with exs, if they're not in your life then they don't exist. Although that might not be a healthy way to look at it! XD But the age difference thing seems odd, 4 years isn't that far apart. X_X

Fri, Jan. 25th, 2008 12:29 am (UTC)
governortadashi: Mmm

Well... healthy or not I can't let things like that bother me. Even though that's what life is...it can be sweet as honey for some people, and others its a bitter poison.
Anyways I'll try not to think about him. I can't waste my time if he doesn't care. There's no use in it.
Thank you, I'll remember what you said.